i want the all access pass



Life is a 3 ring circus, a juggling act, a smorgasbord of color and lights, and for a long time I felt like I had to just choose one act, or at least 1 or two faces to show the world - Mother and Creative were who I was for a long time.  And naming and claiming these helped me to grow into a more fuller version of my life, spilling over into the next area to explore, and then the next, as I grew and expanded.

Having my whole life out there as one complete picture is sometimes scary, but more often it is incredibly liberating.  I'm not sure why we feel like we can only be one thing.  Labels make me a little crazy.  But I am learning more and more simply how to be Me.

And so I have claimed it all...
  


 the wish granter...



the alchemist....



the chance taker...


the seeker...



the artist and maker...



the mother....



the partner and wife...



the unabashed lover...


And so much more.  I can be all these things side-by-side... all at once.  I don't have to be a one act wonder.  I can be the whole shebang!  Because this is the life I am living... bandaids, and school plays, and date nights, and Chutes and Ladders, and writing gigs, and late nights making love, and girl time, and mornings in the studio, and sex ed in school for 5th grade boys, and erotica and parenting and art books in the same stack.  It's full-on, unabashed living.  Does it all fit together seamlessly all the time?  No.  There are prickly moments and big questions to consider, and children to keep safe, and feelings to work through, and values and boundaries to establish.  It's hard work.  No lie.  

But it is so much better than leaving parts of me behind <------- TRUTH 

There is a vital momentum about saying YES to all of it.  Just like my kids on the boardwalk, bright eyed and full of joy and curiosity.... I want to simply experience it all.  An all access pass!  For me, it's the only way to go.  



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