mondo beyondo


growing



in keeping with superhero's new year ritual, i'm inspired to participate in her mondo beyondo 2008 to put 2007 to rest and embrace the year unfolding...


1. what do you want to acknowledge yourself for in regard to 2007? (what did you create? what challenges did you face with courage and strength? what promises did you keep to yourself? what brave choices did you make? what are you proud of?)

the year brought me so much joy through the creation of the wish studio community. even though it is evolving and changing, i am so grateful to have planted these seeds that have made my life richer with new friendships, so much inspiration and opportunity, and the creation of a path towards more mindful and fullfilled living. adding yoga to my life in '07 was a true blessing as well, giving me the long overdue opportunity to reconnect with my body and giving my spirit the space to release the stresses of life. i returned to my journal this past year and my original blog here at pink sky, both spaces that help me reflect and move forward. mostly i am humbled by all the support i have had throughout the year, through the good and bad (and there was lots of both). friends and family showed up always ready to cheer me on as well as wipe away tears. it never ceases to amaze me the power of these connections.


2. What is there to grieve about 2007? (what was disappointing? what was scary? what was hard? what can you forgive yourself for?

the year challanged our family in so many ways. we weathered many rough stormsthat brought on big changes and forced us to rebuild and realign our goals and expectations. we grieved for the unexpected challenges that arose for our son and the loss of a path of education we were poised to embark upon, but gained insight on my own abilities as a parent. we grieved for the reliquishment of our home to escape the mortgage that was threatening to consume us alive, but learned that what we thought might be the worst case scenario was far from it. we grieved for a year that is now marked as one of the most distant between my husband and i as we struggled to stay afloat on hope alone, but find ourselves newly committed to togetherness and still forged in love.

i forgive us all for all the heartache, the anger, the fear and the guilt that lead us through many of our days in 2007. for here we are...still standing, together. our own little miracle.

i also grieve for the ebbing of two friendships...one that simply ran it's course and the other that still stays in my mind as emotions i can't quite resolve and i am not really ready to let go of yet. i think of you often. i think of you as well dear friend, and how you brought so much happiness to so many people's lives and how sad it was to say goodbye.


3. What else do you need to say about the year to declare it complete? the next step is to say out loud, "I declare 2007 complete!" how do you feel? if you don't feel quite right, there might be one more thing to say...

2007 was a year of many powerful life lessons disguised as triumph and trauma. i am grateful for what you have taught me about my own inner strength and my limitations. i am sated to know that love really does conquer all, and i am ready to take what i have learned and move into 2008 with more wisdom, more gratitude, and more joy. i thought at your end i would feel differently, defiantly crossing the line into the next 365, but i am humbled and a bit in awe of what came to pass, and bid you an honorable farewell.

"i declare 2007 complete!"

2008 will be my year of growth and progress, rooted in joy and love...i have taken my two steps back, and am ready to take a giant leap forward!